lost loves
The blogging is expanding to IMing. Jen and I just had a chance to chat online about the blog, "us", coming together, losing and regaining friendship. We thought we should post our transcript as it is -- a reflection of friends drifting away and coming together.
Lesley says:
heya
gwenhyfr says:
hey baby!
Lesley says:
really weird, I only had your yahoo one, so never saw ya online!
gwenhyfr says:
I just turned on my msn one.
Lesley says:
excellent
gwenhyfr says:
and put everyone on
gwenhyfr says:
what are you doing?
Lesley says:
just jumped on after doing dishes and before doing dinner -- I know wrong order, but that's always how i do it
Lesley says:
how about you?
gwenhyfr says:
space inbetween dishes. laundry and dinner.
gwenhyfr says:
I'm checking out my flickr stuff.
Lesley says:
the blog is becoming addictive -- so I bribe myself with post time after I get work done
gwenhyfr says:
No kidding. I have a post in draft I'll finish later when my mind is right.
Lesley says:
I know -- isn't it great? why didn't we do this before? it cracks me up that we are all just NOW getting around to doing it -- but the time is still right
gwenhyfr says:
We all had to be ready. Hannah and Sarah were the ones that weren't until now.
Lesley says:
I'm feeding on memories
Lesley says:
Yes, you are right -- and I was really glad to see Sarah's post and so glad she joined in
Lesley says:
I knew who her roommate was -- and it got me kind of riled up, hence my post that perhaps I shouldn't have put up
gwenhyfr says:
Nope, I know she'll appreciate it. Right now she's still trying to figure out how to blog from her phone.
Lesley says:
Yeah, I can't imagine how she can do it. Did she submit her earlier post via her phone?
Lesley says:
probably not
gwenhyfr says:
She went to the library.
Lesley says:
gotcha
Lesley says:
You know, I think the blog has been really good for all of us, of course. LeAnn seems especially thankful -- I think it took her a while to be ready to be back in touch too
gwenhyfr says:
True. It's hard when you think you're the one that gave up on your friends. Then you have that relief when you find out YOU all feel that way.
Lesley says:
Yeah, I remember giving up in some way -- but never admitting that that was what I was doing.
Lesley says:
I tried to rationalize it all -- but then, there were always different people in the group we bonded with -- even if the whole group wasn't together.
gwenhyfr says:
True. Sarah and Hannah got along better than say you and Sarah.
Lesley says:
You know, like how you and Garrett became good friends. And how Catie and Mariah did. And I did with Mark. And then LE and LeAnn seemed to in college
gwenhyfr says:
It's like we were jealous of our individual friendships and afraid to admit it too.
Lesley says:
Yes, exactly. And then there was a spring/summer when I hung out with Catie and Mariah -- so i don't know if we gave up, or just drifted, like you've talked about before
Lesley says:
Ohmygod, yes!!!!
gwenhyfr says:
Like we all had to be friends together and couldn't have a best friend in the group.
Lesley says:
Oh, I know!!!
Lesley says:
But we all fit in different ways.
gwenhyfr says:
Yep.
Lesley says:
So Garrett told me something funny today -- he said he made a book for me his senior year. But then he took it back to make copies and never gave it back to me. I have only a vague memory of this.....
gwenhyfr says:
he loved us so much!
Lesley says:
so he's going to send it to me. Should be interesting -- I have no idea what it is
gwenhyfr says:
I found all the quotes and old poems you gave to me so long ago. It makes me laugh, because I found my old poems too@
Lesley says:
Yeah, I found one that I wrote for Catie and Mariah, just after a night of us all driving around Marion aimlessly. it's 10 years old
Lesley says:
And I have a story I wrote about you when we were apart, you know -- about one time when we ran into each other at Art in the Park,
Lesley says:
Maybe I told you about it. I was so sad we weren't friends, and I kept thinking I was supposed to move on. I was so stupid!
gwenhyfr says:
When was that? Did i ever tell you how I longed for you when I'd see you around town? How much I missed you and It was almost as bad as seeing an ex-boyfriend when I saw you?
Lesley says:
Yes, I know. One time, I remember, it was like Christmas eve or something, and I ran into you when you were working at CMart. And suddenly, I just didn't want to go home, or go back to school or go anywhere. But it was awkward and we couldn't say anything ......
gwenhyfr says:
And I hugged you and got all stiff like I was some kind of freak.
gwenhyfr says:
I remember.
Lesley says:
Yeah, and I didn't like who I was very much, but I had to get around it or through it or somethinh
gwenhyfr says:
It was awkward because I was ready and you weren't yet.
gwenhyfr says:
Finished my post.
Lesley says:
I know! So we made it through!
Lesley says:
And a friend of mine once said that another friend of hers said that "you aren't really friends until you have a fight or a split or something......."
gwenhyfr says:
True. I think losing you know would be worse than a divorce.
Lesley says:
I think we've proved that. And everyone in the group is proving that.....
Lesley says:
I feel more strongly linked to you and everyone through this -- I can't wait until we all reunite in person
gwenhyfr says:
We need to post this whole conversation.
gwenhyfr says:
It so sums everything up.
Lesley says:
heya
gwenhyfr says:
hey baby!
Lesley says:
really weird, I only had your yahoo one, so never saw ya online!
gwenhyfr says:
I just turned on my msn one.
Lesley says:
excellent
gwenhyfr says:
and put everyone on
gwenhyfr says:
what are you doing?
Lesley says:
just jumped on after doing dishes and before doing dinner -- I know wrong order, but that's always how i do it
Lesley says:
how about you?
gwenhyfr says:
space inbetween dishes. laundry and dinner.
gwenhyfr says:
I'm checking out my flickr stuff.
Lesley says:
the blog is becoming addictive -- so I bribe myself with post time after I get work done
gwenhyfr says:
No kidding. I have a post in draft I'll finish later when my mind is right.
Lesley says:
I know -- isn't it great? why didn't we do this before? it cracks me up that we are all just NOW getting around to doing it -- but the time is still right
gwenhyfr says:
We all had to be ready. Hannah and Sarah were the ones that weren't until now.
Lesley says:
I'm feeding on memories
Lesley says:
Yes, you are right -- and I was really glad to see Sarah's post and so glad she joined in
Lesley says:
I knew who her roommate was -- and it got me kind of riled up, hence my post that perhaps I shouldn't have put up
gwenhyfr says:
Nope, I know she'll appreciate it. Right now she's still trying to figure out how to blog from her phone.
Lesley says:
Yeah, I can't imagine how she can do it. Did she submit her earlier post via her phone?
Lesley says:
probably not
gwenhyfr says:
She went to the library.
Lesley says:
gotcha
Lesley says:
You know, I think the blog has been really good for all of us, of course. LeAnn seems especially thankful -- I think it took her a while to be ready to be back in touch too
gwenhyfr says:
True. It's hard when you think you're the one that gave up on your friends. Then you have that relief when you find out YOU all feel that way.
Lesley says:
Yeah, I remember giving up in some way -- but never admitting that that was what I was doing.
Lesley says:
I tried to rationalize it all -- but then, there were always different people in the group we bonded with -- even if the whole group wasn't together.
gwenhyfr says:
True. Sarah and Hannah got along better than say you and Sarah.
Lesley says:
You know, like how you and Garrett became good friends. And how Catie and Mariah did. And I did with Mark. And then LE and LeAnn seemed to in college
gwenhyfr says:
It's like we were jealous of our individual friendships and afraid to admit it too.
Lesley says:
Yes, exactly. And then there was a spring/summer when I hung out with Catie and Mariah -- so i don't know if we gave up, or just drifted, like you've talked about before
Lesley says:
Ohmygod, yes!!!!
gwenhyfr says:
Like we all had to be friends together and couldn't have a best friend in the group.
Lesley says:
Oh, I know!!!
Lesley says:
But we all fit in different ways.
gwenhyfr says:
Yep.
Lesley says:
So Garrett told me something funny today -- he said he made a book for me his senior year. But then he took it back to make copies and never gave it back to me. I have only a vague memory of this.....
gwenhyfr says:
he loved us so much!
Lesley says:
so he's going to send it to me. Should be interesting -- I have no idea what it is
gwenhyfr says:
I found all the quotes and old poems you gave to me so long ago. It makes me laugh, because I found my old poems too@
Lesley says:
Yeah, I found one that I wrote for Catie and Mariah, just after a night of us all driving around Marion aimlessly. it's 10 years old
Lesley says:
And I have a story I wrote about you when we were apart, you know -- about one time when we ran into each other at Art in the Park,
Lesley says:
Maybe I told you about it. I was so sad we weren't friends, and I kept thinking I was supposed to move on. I was so stupid!
gwenhyfr says:
When was that? Did i ever tell you how I longed for you when I'd see you around town? How much I missed you and It was almost as bad as seeing an ex-boyfriend when I saw you?
Lesley says:
Yes, I know. One time, I remember, it was like Christmas eve or something, and I ran into you when you were working at CMart. And suddenly, I just didn't want to go home, or go back to school or go anywhere. But it was awkward and we couldn't say anything ......
gwenhyfr says:
And I hugged you and got all stiff like I was some kind of freak.
gwenhyfr says:
I remember.
Lesley says:
Yeah, and I didn't like who I was very much, but I had to get around it or through it or somethinh
gwenhyfr says:
It was awkward because I was ready and you weren't yet.
gwenhyfr says:
Finished my post.
Lesley says:
I know! So we made it through!
Lesley says:
And a friend of mine once said that another friend of hers said that "you aren't really friends until you have a fight or a split or something......."
gwenhyfr says:
True. I think losing you know would be worse than a divorce.
Lesley says:
I think we've proved that. And everyone in the group is proving that.....
Lesley says:
I feel more strongly linked to you and everyone through this -- I can't wait until we all reunite in person
gwenhyfr says:
We need to post this whole conversation.
gwenhyfr says:
It so sums everything up.
posted by Lesley at 3:52 PM
6 Comments:
Lovely.
I felt a bit guilty reading it, like I was intruding on the bare emotion of it.
p.s. Remind me, who was Sarah's freshman year roommate??
It felt good to post this-- it was about the two of us and all of us. I hope no one minds the openness expressed here.
And Sarah's roommate: Her first name was Shawna, I think......she had short hair....
It's like reading an interview. It's even better if you read it in our voices! Do you realize we have now known each other more than 20 years?
Thanks for posting that intimate conversation, girls...
i've always missed hanging out with you all... and regretted not getting to know Sarah and Jen. Always felt like the baby of the group and wish i'd gotten to experience so many of the great memories that are being recalled.
Lesley, what was that story that you wrote?! I'd LOVE to read it! :)
Ok, chicks, I nearly cried reading this. Wow!
Catie, you ARE the baby of the group and that's a very special niche. I wouldn't trade you for anything!
Catie,
The baby's the best place to be, all the fun none of the responsibility! What's funny is, even though you were such good friends with Cat and Zan, they never really fit in with all of us together which is weird.
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