Coming Home to Kansas

Well to begin with I went to esu can I just say that 1st yr was miserable. I don't have a problem with anyone's religion and dont mean to offend anyone with what i am going to say. My roommate that yr was very religious, posters music reading the bible to herself and me everynite, it was like being in church 24/7. I made friends with girls that she didn't like and we quietly didn't get along at all. Jennifer was busy being loud at kstate so as long as i did what i was supposed to on the surface i wasn't noticed. I could get my mom to agree to whatever I wanted to do. So doing my homework and then going to the dugout was the plan. The next yr a semester of rooming with eileen and 2 other girls ended in a huge fight between me and another girl and i moved down the hall, no fault of eileen's. So I began the following two yrs seeing some of you around esu occasionally. Making a spur of the moment trip to mississippi to see steve whom I dearly love. Getting married in march of 1996 (almost 10 yrs where did the time go). Then realizing during my last semester while doing a practicum in early childhood sped that i didn't want to teach i hated it. Four years for what? TO KNOW that I hated the thought of teaching. So in my mind I was taking time off. I finished then ran to nebraska. I worked in a grocery store behind the deli counter. I know more about meat and cheese than anyone should. Then I got a job teaching preschool at a daycare which I loved. I had the freedom to do what I wanted as long as I taught the kindergarten skills that they came for. Along came Robynn in 1998. In 2000 I decided to go back to school and attended UNO in deaf education. I loved the sign language. Then I woke up one day and realized that I didn't want to teach. In the middle of all of this Steve began having unexplained grand mal seizures. He spent all of his time when he wasn't at work sleeping. He was on heavy medication. During that time we had Brandon in 2002. The neurolgists at Offutt left and Steve went off medication. Exactly 6 weeks after Brandon was born Steve was in the yard with Robynn and had another grand mal seizure. So the heavy medication began again and Steve refused to live his life in a coma. So he began the process of getting out of the air force. He had one more seizure before we left from the stress and chemicals he was exposed to. That is the only thing that they could attribute the seizures to. In Nov of 2002 we moved back to ks. I found a job teaching preschool which I hated. It was soooooo restricting. Follow this book only don't deviate. Yuck. I needed to be free. So I began cosmetology school in July of 2003. I had found something that I could see myself doing and being happy. Somewhere along the way I had evolved into a person that put on makeup everyday and did more than just clipped back my hair. During that time suprise along came Ian in 2004. A horrible pregnancy. I was sick for 4 months in the beginning and 2 months at the end I could stand without almost passing out. I should have known then that he would be onrey. So here I am now a cosmetologist and a mother. I am a hair artist. I don't know what I was thinking taking art in hs like I could even draw. I have finally found who I am and am not the shy girl that I was before. I am considering going back to get my license in esthetics too. As gross as it sounds I love waxing and facials. We didn't do anything below the neck in school. Maybe it is just my little bit bitchy side that loves to rip hair off of people's faces. But I am happy and that is all that matters